Sayonara yasashikatta egao
(BUCK-TICK. "Jupiter." Kurutta Taiyou. Victor, 1991)
I'm numb. This is not to say that I do not feel anything. On the contrary; I feel too much. Emotions combine and churn. Some conflict while some augment others. My psyche has shut down from the overload. I once heard that the ture definition of Hell is an absolute lack of the presence of God. If I were a man of any amount of faith, I would describe myself as being in Hell.